Koan Summer: Tianping on Pilgrimage

The odd exchange between Tianping and Xiyuan in this koan (Blue Cliff Record, Case 98) has the power to liberate. Even if we do not have the kind of arrogance that Xiyuan demonstrates, many of us show up in Zen feeling as if we’ll never get it, never understand. Both ways—to be full of one's attainments or to lack confidence completely—close off learning and growth. If you want to walk with this koan, try carrying around the mantra, “Mistake!” Notice all the times we set out on a path only to realize it is the wrong way. Notice whether we are open to feedback from people and circumstances. Notice if we are willing to make glorious, undefended mistakes.